CLEAN : Thais in tears as King dies (2)

The transcript covers a range of topics including skating, a song with Ella, partying, and reflections on what matters. It also includes a discussion about thinking and awareness related to one's hand.

Discuss the significance of the phrase 'A part of it, but you know why'. What could it refer to?

What does the phrase 'I mean on hand' suggest in a broader context?